What if i told you, that i still thought about you all the time.

What if i said that i still care as much as before.

What if i still feel empty, like there's still something missing.

The pieces are all put together, and the corners have all been well rounded. But i still find myself alone in the night. Alone in my thoughts, until you arrive. From Tuesdays with Morrie to hot chocolate with friends. The answer's still out there, the solution's uncharted. So i sit and wait. Is it you i wait for? I sit and wait, hoping, thinking, pondering. As alone as i am, you're still with me somewhat. Come visit me friend, come sit, have a drink. I'll wait for you forever, because that's all that i need.

I struggle finding thanks this year, I miss your warm embrace. Yet gazing at your photograph, a smile adorns my face. So when it's time to give our thanks, the truth we can't ignore. It's memories of loved ones lost, that we are thankful for.

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

"Every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?"


"Make you mine and stay with me tonight."


"I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home."


"I was born to tell you... I love you."

"Just the thought of you can drive me wild. Oh you make me smile."

"Last night I had a crazy dream. A wish was granted just for me, it could be for anything. I didn't ask for money, or a mansion in Malibu. I simply wished for one more day with you."

I understand now. I see what is happening.
I just want to see you smile. I just want to hear your laugh.
To look at you just once more and have you look the same way back at me.

"One more day, One more time, One more sunset baby I'll be satisfied."

I'll just disappear again. I'll think of you, I'll picture your face, I'll imagine your hand in mine again. But it won't change. It never will. It's time to face the truth.

"But then again, I know what it would do. Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you."

Goodbye my friend. I wish you the best out there. Don't forget me please. Please.

#3

"These miles have torn us worlds apart"

I miss you. I think about you a lot. Do you think of me? Probably not. I found a door number 3. I hate it. I don't want to take door number 3. I want what i had. I want what i saw in you for a brief moment. I can't decide what I'm feeling. I'm not feeling. That's why.

Good thing I don't control the weather.

Yes and No

This is what you want.
This is what you should do.
This is the best for you.
That is not.

If i were the ruler of the universe. If i made all of the calls, would it rain everyday? Would you see my unrest? Could you taste of my sorrow, while dancing slowly with them? I hide what I'm feeling, i keep in what is mine. So when you look at the sunrise. When you see the snow fall. Think of all that is happy. Think of all that is gone.

"You always want what you can't have"

Today, I need what I can't have

Today, I want what I don't need

Today, I want what I need.

Today, I want you. I need you.

Gavin DeGraw - Not Over You

"The first time i saw you, Oh you looked so fine."

The first time, the second time, the unresisting thought.
Why can't i breathe? I saw your face today. I didn't see you. Just your face.
The whisper from my dream, the picture in my head. I saw your face today.
Why can't i stop thinking about you? Because you're amazing.
The one thing I won't have, is the one I want the most.
Typical you.
Typical me.

Today. I opened my eyes today.
I saw the things worth seeing, and felt the things worth feeling. Truth is, I forgot all about the things i had so longingly thought about. I felt as if i couldn't wait. I wish to begin now doing the things i never did before. Being the person i am not being the person someone wants me to be. Today. I opened my eyes today.

And i loved it.

Sometimes I sit and wonder.
Who decides everything?
What kind of world do we live in?
Why is there Cherries in the TROPICAL FRUIT SHAKE?
How many licks does it take to eat a brownie?
Why are flowers different colors?
And who names things?

I cant seem to find the answers to the questions i have. So what happens when i NEED answers?

The sun comes out every day, but does it really shine?

The darkness is more scary than the light. Why? We know what's in the darkness.

Some days, i cant seem to breathe.

They tell me to be free, but they still tell me how to live.

"You'll never understand Michael, but don't worry about it, nobody does."

Some things cant be changed.

Some things cant be changed.

Some things must be changed.

Must.

Remember that one time where we were best friends?
We could talk about anything.
But today, between us all i find is silence.
Why?

Today is Tomorrow as Yesterday was Then.

You won't even look at me anymore. Now all i see. No.

The Beginning of the End

The Open of the Close. The Start of the Finish.
Alone.
Unwanted.
I don't want this anymore.
I can't do this anymore.
I want to move, I want to run, I want FREE.
Yes. Free.
Tomorrow? Surely not.
Yesterday. Yes.
Why do we stay? Why do we go? Up. Down. Right. Wrong.
It's all the same.
Isn't it?

The controlling chants with the wandering thoughts. My smiling destiny, or my darkened fall. What is that you say? You're right. I'm not here for fun, I'm not here for joy. I'm here for you. And you alone. The times that I've fallen, and the places you've found me. Yes, it's you that i seek for and you that i dream for.

Yes We Can

Tomorrow, Today, Yesterday, Forever. Feelings, Emotions, Tangents, Thoughts. The differences, the similarities, the masterpieces, the trashed. Who, What, When, Where, Why. How many, How much, How often, How kind. Everything then, Everything now. People, Persons.

Alone.

The Difference

The difference between you and me. Him and Her. Them and Us. Today and Tomorrow. Yesterday and Forever. The holding tight to these small differences. These small choices that we make. The ones that will make or break us, save or destroy us, glorify or bring us shame. How do you choose? What is right, What is wrong. What is fast, What is slow. That's the answer isn't it? That's the difference. The answer. What you make of it, what you choose to decide. When your palms are sweaty and your hearts beating fast. Those are the moments that you can bet on being the ones that matter. They say in ten years nothing that happens now will matter. That's great. But it's not 2021 yet. So i still get to choose. Wonderful.